PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

The word DEAR has somehow annoyed me to no end.  It doesn’t matter who it comes from, a girl friend or a guy friend or a stranger, especially more when it comes from a stranger. My instant reaction to such an addressing is ‘I am NOT your dear!! (Unless you mean a deer). The word annoys me even when I read it in comments written by unknown people on unknown blogs or profiles. I have whatsoever no relation with the addresser or the addressee except that I am a passive reader; and yet it annoys me! So I pondered for reasons, I read conversations where ‘dear’ was profusely used. I tried not to get irritated and actually understand what it makes me feel. Well it makes me feel lot many negative feelings than just irritation. Firstly it creeps me out, it scares me, and it creates suspicion in my head in regards with the writer’s intention behind such casual proximity. I shivered to know that a word which technically means ‘precious in one's regard’; to me means ‘threat’. In ...

every working human must have said this statment in his/her life atleast once, and tat is, "the one and only good thing about doing a job is, THE MONEY". ohk can nebody solve this mystry for me??? was 10 and hated skool like hell, after passing out sat on da parapet oppsite the skool wid frnds and breathed heavy. went to college hated it too, nothing worth except da campus, filled woth gujrathis all over, served samosa with sambar, wat a combo, i must say. no one i cud match my frequency wid. all my classmates had there lil groups(coocons), non an explorer, still managed to make few frnds (well tat i always do) bt didnt expect much off them. by the time it was time to leave collg almost entier class was frnds with each other. left coll and felt like turning the time backwards. now i have a job, made a lot of frnds too, bt still feel like something is missing. y is it tat we always like something wen its gone? y do we keep running behind those things tat we shudnt ...

Image via Wikipedia 'creative brain and abstract person' is the compliment i received from a friend on orkut. This is not the first time I have received this compliment, but it is the first time it has angered me. Previously I use to like it when people called me creative, it use to flatter me, in my mind I would say "wow man! that's great people think I am creative they think am smart , I must be at a higher level than the others". But today it just annoyed me, 'creative'.. bullshit, either they are saying it cause they want me to appreciate their work too, or they are just being polite, i don't know. Sometimes I feel like a total screw up, I don't have the street smartness or the skills of playing politics and manipulating things, I am utterly lazy and awkwardly shy, how am i ever gonna sustain in this media industry tat i haven't even entered yet? I know what an utter moron I am, people never see that(if hiding tat flaw is creativity then ...