PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

I like how every elderly seamlessly become an uncle or an aunty in India. Just the other day I was returning from work. I stood at a bus stop, pondering what a beautiful contrast this random bustop of Andheri, Mumbai was. On one side I could see a lush green hill of Mahakali caves, right in front of me. A small foot over bridge coming straight out of the forest and onto the highway, looked like one of those Studio Ghibli charmer, old city features. On the other, there were repair shops; and a lot of dust and dirt blowing in my nose and eyes every time a vehicle passed. If a truck passed my ears had had it too! The bus stop was a single pole with a placard of bus numbers. No safe landing, no shelter. If you bent forward to see which bus was arriving, you could lose your head to a zooming car. There was an old man already waiting there. Short, lean, completely white hair, decently dressed in a light blue shirt, not tucked in. Full sleeves cuffed at the wrist and below khaki pants. He w...

The word DEAR has somehow annoyed me to no end.  It doesn’t matter who it comes from, a girl friend or a guy friend or a stranger, especially more when it comes from a stranger. My instant reaction to such an addressing is ‘I am NOT your dear!! (Unless you mean a deer). The word annoys me even when I read it in comments written by unknown people on unknown blogs or profiles. I have whatsoever no relation with the addresser or the addressee except that I am a passive reader; and yet it annoys me! So I pondered for reasons, I read conversations where ‘dear’ was profusely used. I tried not to get irritated and actually understand what it makes me feel. Well it makes me feel lot many negative feelings than just irritation. Firstly it creeps me out, it scares me, and it creates suspicion in my head in regards with the writer’s intention behind such casual proximity. I shivered to know that a word which technically means ‘precious in one's regard’; to me means ‘threat’. In ...

Image via Wikipedia 'creative brain and abstract person' is the compliment i received from a friend on orkut. This is not the first time I have received this compliment, but it is the first time it has angered me. Previously I use to like it when people called me creative, it use to flatter me, in my mind I would say "wow man! that's great people think I am creative they think am smart , I must be at a higher level than the others". But today it just annoyed me, 'creative'.. bullshit, either they are saying it cause they want me to appreciate their work too, or they are just being polite, i don't know. Sometimes I feel like a total screw up, I don't have the street smartness or the skills of playing politics and manipulating things, I am utterly lazy and awkwardly shy, how am i ever gonna sustain in this media industry tat i haven't even entered yet? I know what an utter moron I am, people never see that(if hiding tat flaw is creativity then ...