PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

Technology is my 2nd love, first being nature. I wondered if the two could live in complete harmony, not a marriage though. Marriage somehow can never be perceived as complete harmony by me. It amazes me to see how the fanatics of either world refused to see the miracles of the other.  How can you deny the interdependence, when you see NGOs using social media network to propagate. And how could you deny the raw material for technology was a part of nature once? It’s like these people are indifferent to common sense. But then, what if the global warming was meant to happen, like the dinosaurs were meant to disappear? what if nature is not as perfect as we believe? What if nature was inclined to making mistakes too? ‘Man is the biggest mistake of nature!’ we all crib, okay! all the ‘eco-friendly-s’ crib. But what if man was the one meant to fix things? And what if global warming was his weapon to do so? None of us knows what is going to happen after when global warmin...

I can’t see you. I see your soul, and I wish you could see mine too. It’s okay if you can’t; sometimes even I feel empty in my soul. I am so tired………; Tired of moving from one to other, tired of chasing god knows what. I expect people to understand me, to accept me and love me, when I myself can’t do any of that to my own. I don’t understand me; one moment I want to be all alone and the next I wish I had someone to love, to sink into their arms and forget the world, to feel little again, to feel careless again. Sometimes I feel a weird invincible strength in being alone and then I also feel if I just had that one love in life I could conquer the whole world. One moment I want to own the whole damn world the next I could be the wandering fakir, no possessions, and no expectations, just so free. I haven’t yet accepted myself. It’s clear from the way I hide myself from people all the time; Always the listener never the speaker. It tortures my soul when I think why I can’t be simp...