sach OR jhoot?

Kisine sach hi kaha hai choti choti baatein bade bade assar kar jati hai. Kabhi yuhi chalet chalet kisi dost ki sharat yaad ana. Nahate waqt holi me bhigna yaad aana. To kabhi bus stop pe khade school jate bachoon ko dekhke kisi chote bhai ya behen ki yaad ana to kabhi apne hi school ke din yaad ana. Ye aksar hota hai. Aur jab hota hai tab chehre par ek uncontrollable smile ka ajana. Life humesha sad nahi hoti, yaade humesha rula nahi jati. Bita hua pal khushiyose bhara ho yaa dard se, jo insane jine ki ichha rakhta hai use har yaad gudgudake hi jaati hai. Par jo insane sab hoke bhi haara hua sa rahe use ye yaade daulat nahi torture lagti hai. Mujhe haarna nahi hai. Achhi yade mujhe housla deti hai aur buri, sikh.
Mujhe jina hai, har pal. Kyu insan maut ke darwaze pe ake hi jine ki khwaish rakhta hai? jab zindagi pass hoti hai to kyu usse nazarandaz kardeta hai? Ha bhai! mai shaant hu. Apne me hi khoi rehti hu, muskurati bhi thoda kum hu, par mai ji rahi hu. Zindagi me aya hue har pal ko apna rahi hu. Mere andar koi gum nahi hai jisko zabardasti chupane ke liye mai jhoota hasu. Jab dard hota hai tab mai roungi, chilaungi, badla bhi lungi… shayad isiliye jab mai sai maaine me khush hoti hu toh zor se hasti hu, khulke hasti hu. Aur ha mujhe choti batein, bewakuf si batein bhi hasa deti hai. Jab insane jhoot ka roo nahi sakta, jhoote aasu se nafrat karta hai to wo jhoot ka hase bhi kyu? Jhooti hasi ko ‘brave’ bole kyu? Nahi banna mujhe ‘strong’. Naqab pehnke nahi jina mujhe. Mujhe sach dekhna hai, sach chuna hai, sach jina hai. nafrat hai mujhe unlogo se jo jyada haste hai, jo jyada rote hai, jo kehte kuch hai aur karte kuch. Aur fir bhi muh uthake duniya ko sikh dene nikalte hai. sach saha nahi jata unse, kaayar.

Aaj nahi to kal, ye nahi to wo, har waqt har insane hume khush kare na kare, kuch sikhake toh jata hi hai. Jhute, dhokebaaz log bhi hume sach hi dikha ke jate hai. zindagi ka sac! isme koi sahi ya galt nahi hota isme koi acha ya bura nahi hota. Himmat rakho isse dekhne ki. Sab me nahi hoti. Aur jinme nahi hoti, bas woi hai zindagi ka jhoot. Kala jhoot jo usme wishwas rakhne wale hare ek ko andhere me nigal jata hai. nahi badalni mujhe meri soch unlogo ke liye jinme khudka sach apnaneki bhi himmat nahi. Nahi nachna mujhje kisi manch pe taaliyo ki gunj sunne ke liye. bhid ki bicho bich nach ke dekho.  Jab bhid hatne lage tumhe rasta dene, jab bhid thamb jaae thumhe niharne ke liye, alag hi maza hai uska. Par himmat lagti hai. sach usi ko dikhta hai jo use dekhne ki himmat rakhta hai. 

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