PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

one of my friend was asked "what is true love to you?", he said "its a waste of time and money". one "yes" followed this remark. Of course they were both hurt in love, and drunk at that time. But seriously what is love? If I were asked the same question, I would say"love is like air" (not love is in the air that's a different phrase , i hope u know). It has different elements and compositions like air. It has different forms like air, and just like air you can never see it but feel it. It is as limitless and free as air. I personally hate the words 'boyfriend and girlfriend' sounds too lame, typical and possessive to me. All you can do is breath love, feel it, enjoy it and then let it pass through you making space for the next. Ever heard of air to be in one place forever?? no right!! then don't review the entire show of LIFE on the basis of just one episode. love one and love all. Be happy people.

Image via Wikipedia 'creative brain and abstract person' is the compliment i received from a friend on orkut. This is not the first time I have received this compliment, but it is the first time it has angered me. Previously I use to like it when people called me creative, it use to flatter me, in my mind I would say "wow man! that's great people think I am creative they think am smart , I must be at a higher level than the others". But today it just annoyed me, 'creative'.. bullshit, either they are saying it cause they want me to appreciate their work too, or they are just being polite, i don't know. Sometimes I feel like a total screw up, I don't have the street smartness or the skills of playing politics and manipulating things, I am utterly lazy and awkwardly shy, how am i ever gonna sustain in this media industry tat i haven't even entered yet? I know what an utter moron I am, people never see that(if hiding tat flaw is creativity then

graduating from college gives you weird feelings you are happy tat finally you have graduated and no more exams , sleepless nights spent over assignments and projects and at the same time no more daily hangout wid friends either. but that's still something very common. i went and collected my final year mark sheet yesterday . somehow i was not excited to see it, I was not excited to know my result. I knew i wud pass, n i did, may be tats y i don't feel the excitement . what i had always worried abt is making this education worth all the money i paid for it. but here i am having second thoughts about changing fields , that wud include another 3-4 yrs of college education and 4-5 lakhs of rupees, neither of which i am willing to spend. worst is i don't noe which field to get into if i actually do change. this has always been a problem for me since i was school kid. y cant i fix my mind to one thing? i have been accused of being unstable all my life. honestly,

this my first time ever as a blogger. every1 wants to blog these days, why wont they when they can earn money through just stiing at one place blurting out something even they dont understand. well, honestly am one of them. when i was in school we had diary writting in grammer, i tried once and them left it only to come back it now. the thougt of some1 peeping into my personal space scared me, but here i am letting the whole world read my mindless mind. neways i realy dont think this will entierly be a dairy sort of a thing. looking forward to making friends and have some sensible talk with people who realy care to exist. dont live just because you have been born in this world-live because you like the feeling of beening alive.