PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

sigh............. its been long i haven't written nething. well i have stumbled upon a phase in life where u feeling like nothing is happening n nothing will ever happen, standstill, dead end, wat else can u call it?????? well even death is not a dead end, i.e of course if u believe in rebirth. so with new hope u start out again, but someone comes along n shows how hollow or rather weak ur hope is. u wanna kill that person avoid him/her, ignore him/her, but u cant. coz deep down u know the truth too. you start avoiding ppl who you thought were ur soul mates, best friends forever, blah blah blah. you don't hate them, its not even like you care less about them. the very ppl with whom u cud talk to, at lengths, hours n hours together, now seem distant uninteresting. this is just a phase in life, it has to pass, may be its time for some soul searching, travelling, or may be just plugging your ears n sleeping 14 hrs a day.

A few days back i went to a studio where children were modelling. After watching kids in advertisement and in movies I shouldn't have been amazed and surprised of the fact that children can also be the subject of photo shoots. The photographer was a bit annoying though asking the kids to pose in various manners. And the only words he had to encourage those kids were, ‘awesome' 'beautiful child' 'great pose'. He uttered the word awesome, about a thousand times, and hey all children ARE! nothing but beautiful!! Seriously, even the parents had started giving instructions to their respective child. Poor children!! One incident that I must share though. There was a girl about 10 or 11 yrs old. The kind of poses she was giving, she would have easily overthrown Tyra Banks. The photographer asked her, after a while to stop posing like that and act her age, like a 10 yr old. Looking at her blank expression, I really wonder, if