PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

If only there was a person walking down the street, with 'the one' written in his eyes. And if only I was walking up the same street at the same time. Life would be a ‘dream come true’. And then I get out from that dream only to ask myself, ‘the one’ for me? Huh! What about him? Am I ‘the one’ for him? But then isn’t the whole phenomenon of being ‘the one’ a mutual affair? What if the phenomenon is a farce created by some loser who could never accommodate anyone’s imperfections and blamed his inability to love anyone on this phenomenon? Oh how easy is it to say! “Am single coz am waiting for ‘the one’”……. (while I ignore all the beauty that passes by me simply because I don’t have the courage to deal with reality, the courage to belong to somebody.) Oh what a fool man becomes in his absolute self-awareness! That he becomes completely unaware of the simple happiness, of the intricate and chaotic universe and hence of course! he is unaware of the beauty in chaos.

What do you do when you have tried your best and even more, But things just won’t change? What do you do when you have no one to blame. What do you do when you want to let go of the past, But then who’s to tell the wrong from right apart. What do you do when present is what you want to focus on Yet it is what makes you feel lost. What do you do when you want both the worlds? But all you have is a large vacuum staring at your face. I don’t need you to say I went wrong, I don’t even need you to say it will be ok, I don’t need you at all if this is how you plan to play. I just need you, Need you in spite of your bad plotting, In spite of my lousy reading, I need you simply to trust in. I know, I don’t always listen,  I won’t even But I still want you to keep repeating. Won’t deny, I deserve a lesson, But I don’t deserve to be abandoned. So hit me with your hardest blow I won’t stop you cause I know I will glow As with every mist