PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

In the mornings the first thing I do is think of you and say your name In the night the last thing I do is think of you and say your name Everything I ever did was love you with no regrets Anything I will ever do is keep loving you with no regrets the day I saw you happy I wished the reason was me the day I saw you gloomy I wish I could have for longer stayed For the hours and minutes that we have been thro Seem so less For the months and years I long to be with you Seem so far My days aren’t so sad any more My memories aren’t so strong any more And my feelings have no life any more I saw u at my door today I thought you meant to stay What a fool I was to hold your hand and pray I prayed with my tears For the strength to fight all my fears I still long for you to step in and hold my hand I still long for you to pray with me Hold every drop in your palms Like in heaven shine the trinkets And so yet again I say I love you wit

A few days back I wrote a status. So sardonically I wrote ‘when one doesn’t have anything to look forward to in life, one should not even try and instead look around’. Usually I follow my own words, but to be honest 2 weeks at my desk with no real job and eight months straight with no real job satisfaction, my life seems stunted , doomed and not worth waiting for. Job, why does man need a job? And please don’t give me the ‘to provide the hungry stomach shit’ it’s hard to buy especially when you hear all the fucking rich starving themselves to death just for that PERFECT fit and the PERFECTLY SHIT class. Why does man need a job? It’s not for money and it’s definitely not for food. God gave us food alright, and he spread it even too. From what I reckon man 1st needed a job to do away his boredom, then to show off his craftsmanship and then to distinguish status and that’s when ‘money’ came into the picture. I have a job that dose not fulfill any of the causes. Instead of killing my