PURNAMIDAM - mindlessly mindful

So its true after all...humans are primarily animals with emotions that are namesake and relations that are baggage. Life goes on and we just get use to it. Everything it throws at us whether we hate it or like, we just pick it up, live with it and even learn to love it. Erasing all the traces of good and bad, all the traces of true and false, all the traces of friends, family and enemies erasing all the traces of permanent and  temporary.....w e just accept it with a defeat, as if it has been like this forever and it will be. But the truth is, we just don't care about anything and anyone beyond us, precisely the only thing that differentiates us from animals.

In a church, when I don’t press my palms together and pretend to pray like everyone else, but just stare at that poor man hung on a cross drenched in his own blood and pain. Father: what do u look at, so intensely child? Me: I wonder father. Father: what do you ponder on? Me: whom do I pray for? Me or this man hung up here? Father: He doesn't need prayers; He is the one who answers our prayers. He is the son of God. Me: hahhaha father do you really believe that? Look at him!!!! What have you been smoking? hahhaha Father: (smiles) you are not a Christian are you? Me: how is that any different from me being a Christian?  Father: what is your religion, child? Me: no. religion doesn't belong to me. Father: oh! So you’re the atheist types  Me: oh no, I have faith, I have a lot of faith Father: in what? Me: in me, in my God. Well he is actually not just mine, just that when he is with me he is all mine. I talk to him every day, you kno